i think ive blogged about this before.

what decision would you make when neither one is rite, its just likeboth of them are like fleshes in your hands; either way it'll hurt.

but there's alwyas a choice that makes you happier but this time round, if i choose happiness, ill be forsaking and sacrificing others. its an selfish act but there are times when you reach the limit and you cant bear with it any longer. its just like reaching the highest peak, you cant go further up, the only way is to retreat and back down.

im set on that decision but there's a lot of considerations ive to think, before i do anything. im lost despite hearing a lot of advices and so forth, perhaps, im really numbed that when i had a thrashign yest nite, i feel nothing.

im happier away frm there, away frm all the phonealls, just being with people i loved, having fun with andy, it makes time pass by so fast and made me forget all my troubles, forget that im enduring all those rubbish.

no one can give you a solution, a perfect idea for in a million, there would only be one that has undergone the same situation as you do, frm then, they can relate to you and it carries on frm there.

can i forget about everything and do as i please?

lord, please show me everyday
as youre teaching me your way
to just do just what you say
in your time.