alrites, ive two hours to slack before lecture commence, thus im blogging. tt's how my every thursday's gonna be lky, kinda pathetic i suppose. luckily, ive a pri sch mate in e same class as i do, if nt ill bore to death in tt long break.

sch's started but the first week's pretty much a breeze as there's no lab sessions nor is the tutorials but frm then on, i think its gonna be more hectic and heavier. and i reckon ill be late again and again for lessons. tt's a typical thing. its been quite a tough week i mean, with regards to emotions and happenings. comments by some insensitive ppl pulled me down to bits but now im still here, in a piece all credits given to him, for his presence, bearing with everything and stuff.

its yet another new term, and i think ill be struggling with conveyancing matters. those resolutions tt i set for myself, lets see if ill complete them. i sure hope so. but er. there's always impromtu stuff if you guys noe it, plain laziness and everything. =)

oh ya. and xuan ru went in to army today. its barely few hours, but i supposed im beginning to miss him. all the late nite chats and emotions he shared with me. hope he's liking it there.

to my dearest twiny;
whether u are reading this or you are nt. dun pull urself down with presumptions and facts tt u make up urself which ultimately are just stuff tt u say to deceive urself. i mean. hello, if u go ask any person who noes u, i doubt they'll agree with whatever u say bout urself, being stupid and all. u urself noe urself best, if ure stupid, then u wouldn haf achieve anything alrites? nothing's entirely ur fault and no one shd put the whole burden on themselves. ure not bounded by it and ure not a superwoman to carry all this loads by urself. it takes two hands to clap, thus it explains the above. dun be silly alrite. its nt ur fault at all, it seriously aint. why blame urself? ure smarter than u think u are, ure better than wadever ppl/ u criticise urself. and i seriously mean it. trust me. smile again alrites? =) tt's then my twiny. loves; hugs.

here's what i did for the whole of today. =)














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now;

be proud of me. =)

tt message tt hurt a million;
cutting deep beneath those flash.
there and then, the smile was replaced with tears.
haf u misunderstood me or haf i done so?

walking along the streets
my footsteps gt heavy
out of a sudden;
i seem to lose tt shelter
i couldn find my direction anymore.

when i turned around;
it was empty.
i know my stand. very clearly.
i doubt things are gonna be the same again.
iim slowly disappearing into the air;
becomin jus lky any particle,
losing my sparkle .

i merely wanted to say.
since u noe how i was feeling
and i guessed ure the only one who did.
could u just gif me more pratical comfort.
AND
i didn mean:
uve never done anything at all.

mayb i didn phrase it rite
or perhaps its too much to ask for.

ill never reject you if you stand rite in front of me;

words aint supposed to affect me
but they still did;
next time, just shut up
no one will take you as a dumb person.
if u wanna pull me down with ur words, just scram.
im the way i am.
accept it; if not jus get lost.

millions of thanks for making the trip over.
you really needn do it though i was craving it.
despite it being the wrong thing altogether, its the tot and everything else that mattered.
and i finished it, lick-ed clean. =)
even mummy think what u did is great.
i mean seriously, who wouldn think so.
trips here and back jus for that.
thank you.

been 20 days since ive blogged. oh man, aint i such a "regular" blogger?

cant remember what's been happening the past few days except being sick, lying lky a patient, awaiting for someone to get me out of that boredom. but tt's not the climax of it all. had a wonderful delight today. and guessed what, it came frm my student, the ever most cheekiest guy who would lame with you bout this and day, playing hide-and-seek with ur stuff and all btu when he's serious, he's amazing. he gets all things done at ur fingertips and at tt very moment, u'll feel real proud of him. he's non under than mr nui.

out of the blue, he gave me this bottle/box of swt choc or is it choc-swt. it doesn matter. the most amazing thing is tt is his favourite sweet but yet he's giving it to me. nt treating me to one or two but a whole brand new tube. how i noe it? he has tubes of it arranged neatly in his cupboard. he says tt its his collection.

perhaps i might nt bear to eat it ar. and i cant eat it now. tt kinda feeling is really amazing ar. something tt u never expect will happen happened in front of you. at tt instant i tot he was sweet. but i changed my mind in a split second cos he started his hide-and seek. aint i glad tt he returned it to me? and he's real cute. claiming tt he's afraid to be home alone and asked tt i extend another half an hour. and im supposed to set a test paper for him.

kiddes;
none of you would be here reading this but still i haf to say tt its really been a joy having u guys in my life, adding yet another vibrant chapter into it. psle, end of yrs are coming, tension is rising, stress is adding on but still no matter what, just gif ur best shot in the battlefield, no matter what happens, u guys will always be my proudest. tt includes u nat, if ure reading this. the smiles, the laughters tt u kiddies haf created works wonders. all the best and gd luck.
loves;