i gave my brother a shock today when i told him that my head was bleeding and showed him this tissue paper filled with blood stains. but the bleeding came from a bursted pimple when my comb accidentally brushed against it, quite stupid ar, ok, its damn stupid.

im down sick, with a cold and an oncoming fever, plus a sorethroat, how nice is that kinda feeling.

i saw the programmers today, with their sl t-shirts on, helping out in the vibrant life. i dunno why but i dont have the feeling of wanting to go up to them and say hi, it sounds bad, but still, i am just afraid of the response ill get in return. somehow, the bond then would not be carried forward till today, those laughters, tears, and everything else ended then.

that's exactly how i feel. everything has changed. Many are gonna say that the people are still who they are or im plainly thinking too much but i reckon its a fact that everyone has to accept. Just look like all the status , is either busy or away, everyone has dispersed, into their own busy life, yet another chapter of their own.

i hate to admit but i detest that silence - that was the reponse.

RESULTS AINT THE WAY TO DEEM ONE PERSON'S INTELLIGENCE.

whenever results are released, you would hear a commotion, all around you, people are asking about each other's results. when your each home, parents would compare results with her fren's child or her nieces, nephews, its not good to have cousins of your age you know?

im the lucky one who doesn but like any other person,ive been thru all those stages that now i believed that process is more important than the end result. No doubt, some people are born smart, its in their blood, in their dreams but there are others who can outshine when they work doubly hard.

i still remembered those times when mummy would come back with loads of gossips, the most hilarious one, is to even haf to report that my cousin, then he was pri 2 scored an egg for his chinese ting xie. the first reponse was a "huh", its like its a fact that its quite easy to score full marks by just practising and memorising.

but in my family its like the most sizzling gossip would reach your ears the very day the incident happen, it explains why im such a KPO now huh. haha.

back to where i was, there are times or rather ive been slacking for so many times that being dilligent seems ailen to me, perhaps its due to my not liking this kinda system, that kinda study method, btu wadevr the reason may be, those are just excuses. when i turn back and look at myself, i realised there's loads of regrets, those things about "if only".

but the past is over, its too late to ponder over it, thus let's just look at the present. im trying, im learning still, like anyone else.

if you believed that youve done ur best, nothing else matters, that applies to you my kids as well, ill be proud of each and everyone of you, no matter what ur result may be. =)