i feel so lost suddenly, when this person A asked me for the contacts of 3 other ppl,. B, C, D. initially i tot he was another of my fren thus i asked the reason for im afriad the others might mind but it turned out that i had mistaken him for another guy. and his response made me stood dumbfounded. he said."

er.. this kinda thing oso must report to you? just wnana ask them sumthing:"

we are a team, i tot we were, thus i tot we're supposed to be open, i doubt there's anything to hide if we were a team but i guesed perhaps im too simple-minded.

to me, i feel that its a me-to-you kinda thing instead of a me-to-everyone kinda thing. sometimes, lost in the conversations, in my own world cos no updates were made, its just like a react on ur feet kinda thingy.

perhaps the only together thing i feel is taking instructions together, crapping, doing nonsensical stuff which i personally feel aint enuff, i dont feel part of it. a very simple eg is like lets say, the whole team is supposed to wear this particular top but some of them were not informed. its a form of outcast a feel and we start questioning, fingers starts pinpointing.

i tot the least is to ask the whole team instead of just a few here and there, perhaps there are reasons, perhaps, there's this and that. but still. i dunno, perhaps ive never worked in this kinda environment before and the perhaps continues. but its just a piece of my tot.